This is not a post about my life. This is me venting.
Have you ever felt like someone close to you is hiding something. And it seems as if they think you are too dumb to figure it out. i want this person to be open with me, I want to know all about what is happening in this person's life, I love this person like a sister/brother. (NOTE: this person doesn't read this blog, so it's none of you guys...I promise)
I feel like the reason we have grown apart is partly my fault, in an involuntary way. I wish I could take it all back but I can't. I hope within a few weeks, by the time I have plans with this person, it will all blow over. But part of me feels like it will never change. Partly because this person is slightly immature, but is maturing. But this person is still at the point where I feel like they don't get that they can trust me. That sounds so cliche, but I want this person to trust me enough to tell me things again.
Then again, recently, I feel I cannot trust this person anymore either. But for very different reasons.
I don't know if any of you can relate to this, or can sympathize. I don't care if you do or don't. I am just blowing off steam, I guess.
Life sure is funny.
Bon Appetit.
Em
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I understand you so much, Em. I think like you all the time. But hey, you have Tom, Lindsey, Kristen, and me whom all you can trust and who trust you. We love you and will always be here for you. Confide in us and casually be friends with IT.
Blessed Yom Kippur!
...yom kippur...? nevermind...
anyway, a whole-hearted ditto to what allison said. and i know that you know that, and it doesn't change the fact that you still miss the way your friendship with the other person used to be. stay in it for the long haul, em! your friendship with this person is still good, and this person needs you.
allison will know what i'm talking about here: my best friend used to not trust me sometimes, and for absolutely no reason besides the fact that she was so wary of people. i was a good friend to her though, and was always there when she did want to confide in me, and i think it really blessed and helped her. now obviously eventually she abandoned me entirely, but our situations are different, so i really (really) don't think that will happen to you. but i understand how much it hurts. and there's nothing you can do except love the person and be there for them whenever they need you. and then just leave it in His hands. easier said then done, i know, but thankfully He knows too, and He will be faithful to help us trust Him. :)
i love you, em! talk to you soon!
my verification is "buhlrx"...reminds me of allison's beltches when she gets off a good one. :)
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