Desperate for Autumn

Have you ever had one of those days where you don't feel like doing anything or dealing with anyone?
You're not depressed or sick or mad etc. It's more like you're stuck in the in-between. You just want to lay in bed or on the couch all day, watching tv and eating soup. No cell phone, no Internet, no school, no work, no friends, no communication of any kind, no thoughts of the outside world....just you, the tv and, to top it all of, the sound of the rain outside...

Well, it's not raining... I have class in 2 hours... I have roommates and am not alone... the only thing I guess I have going for me is the fact that I don't have to work tonight...

So, I'm in a funk. I am pretty sure I have been able to narrow down the reasons as to why I am in such a funk...

1) the overwhelming reality of being a "grown up". I got my money from school, and was expecting to put most of it in my savings account so I could start saving for my few planned travels this school year. Well, bills had to be paid (expected), groceries had to be bought (expected), car needed new tires (expected...but not cheap), and when I thought I was in the clear... turns out I needed to get new struts for my car. 500 bucks. Well, I guess I'm lucky that I had the money at the time. I'm a big believer in everything happens for a reason, and perhaps that's why I had the money...so I could fix the problem before it got worse. But it still leaves a bad taste in your mouth when you have to spend money you weren't expecting to spend.
so, this contributes to my funk because escaping the "real world" doesn't have any hidden fees...or does it?

2) Overwhelming change. I use overwhelming for lack of a better word, I'm not really overwhelmed, it's more like swimming against a current but there is no undertow, so I am not getting swept out to sea. Classes just started, and I am taking a few more credits than most of my peers (however there are some taking more). Because they all just started, I am not used to my new schedule. That includes working classes, work and social/relax time into my schedule. I know in a few more weeks I will be in my groove, it just hasn't clicked yet. Waiting for the click is what is making me want to escape to the in-between, where schedules aren't important.

3) The unrelenting heat. Having to ride my bike to and from class is miserable...having to wait fifteen minutes for the air to cool down in the car when you are only making a ten minute trip is miserable...being in classes filled with bodies that raises the temperature and the odor in the room is miserable...not being able to take a refreshing dip in the pool because the water is like bath water is miserable...not being able to ever quench a thirst is miserable...the AZ heat is just miserable. And, therefore, got me thinking about the Autumn this morning. When the air is brisk, jeans and a sweatshirt are stylish and comfortable, riding my bike with cool air blowing in my face, being able to eat things like soup or chili every day, hot chocolate and the autumn flavored coffees that are around, being able to be outside for more than five seconds, the mindset that the holiday's are approaching and all the other things that attribute to that time of the year: my favorite time of the year.
I do wish that I got to experience real Autumn, where the leaves change colors and fall off the trees, impatiently waiting for the first snowfall, etc. But the harsh reality of it all is that it is still over one-hundred degrees outside and I am going to fry my face off when I go to class in a little while. This is what contributes most to my current funk.

It doesn't help that I know I am going to Michigan for Thanksgiving and am so excited for this trip and cannot wait....because the more I anticipate, the longer I do have to wait.

Well, it's breakfast time...and instead of a steaming bowl of chili, I think I will go have Apple Jacks... and instead of curling up on the couch to a movie or marathon of some kind, I think I will go shower and get ready for school...

I just thought of one last thing... Most people are going around today saying things like, "TGIF!" or "It's finally the weekend!"...and while I hear all these people say this...I don't believe them. For me, you see, it is not the weekend...I work a total of 16 hours between Saturday and Sunday....

And to top it all of: It just started raining....hot rain, not the kind I was hoping for...but alas, I wasn't specific enough, was I?

From the Friday Funks, I bid you all farewell. And in hopes for a speedy return,

Bon Appetit!