Well, all good things must come to an end; and, alas, my play "Tragedy: A Tragedy" by Will Eno closed on Sunday afternoon. (Sighs)
What to do with my life now? Well, I desperately need a job...but I still want to act...I am in a bit of a pickle. Or am I?
Well, here's what I am working with. If I get a morning job (like at a coffee shop or a bagel shop) then I can still do rehearsals and shows at night....but I am not having much luck finding a job and I really need to take whatever I can get...but I want to act (stomps feet on ground).
I'm going to stop myself right there. No use throwing a temper-tantrum on my own blog. That's pathetic. Instead I am going to tell you why I want to act.
Don't worry I'm not going to write you an essay on why acting is my "passion" or why the "theatre is my calling"...I am going to tell you about closing weekend of my show and then you will see why I want to continue what I love doing...
Coming into this show I was very nervous. Most of the cast consisted of Grad students and I was nervous about that because I didn't know how well I would fit in. Also, my perceptions of the grad students were that they were very egotistical...
Thursday was a slow night and Friday was a little better. Friday after the show a few of my fellow cast mates (two of the three other under-grads) invited me to go to a costume party with them. I decided to go. The theme was 7 deadly sins, so I put on pjs and went as sloth. The party was really boring, but we wanted to have some fun so we decided to leave the party and go drive around. The girl driving got pulled over for a really stupid reason and the cop was really awkward. After that one girl with us decided she was hungry so we were off to find a Sonic. After that we debated whether or not to go back to Katie's to watch a movie or just all go home and go to bed. We were exhausted so she brought us back to our cars at the party and we all headed home. But, I had a really fun time with the girls.
Saturday night was out best show of our entire run. The audience was the best ever. In the pre-show where I come on and set up the anchor's desk, I got applauded...this audience was my favorite. After the show we were all super pumped and some of the gang (the director-Joya, and two grad Students- Zac and Lee) wanted to go celebrate. y roommate were out of town and an empty house was awaiting me so I decided to tag along. Lee drove with me and we met the rest of the gang at a bar/restaurant Boulders. I ordered water and decided I wasn't hungry but if we all were to order dessert I would do that. Zac loves this place and ordered an appetizer of wings for us all to share. Jamaican Jerk flavored. They were amazing. When Lee got her food she realized she was never going to finish it all so she pawned off some of her fries to me. We talked and talked for like two hours. We were laughing and having a really great time. On the way home, I drove Lee home, we started talking about things. I told her my fear of working with grad students coming into the show, but they have been super awesome and I have loved every minute of it. She re-assured me that the grad students love working with the undergrads because they get sick of working with the same 15 people... then she told me how when she first got cast she felt bad because her small role could have gone to an undergrad and she feels bad that the grad students keep taking all the roles in every show. (That made me realize that not all grad students are full of themselves.) I dropped her off home and had a really great feeling about life, went home kicked my feet up on the coffee table and relaxed.
Sunday was CRAZY. Church was chaotic as usual and I had to leave early but was still late to call time. We did our last show, not as good as the night before but not our worst. Afterwards we had strike. All the girls in the cast were assigned to the make up head. We cleaned out the dressing rooms and then "waited" for the laundry to be finished. We all sat and watched Youtube videos until we were dismissed.
As I am in my car getting ready to pull away from Tragedy: A Tragedy for the final time Adam (one of my favorite cast members) exited the theatre and spotted me. He mouthed, "I loved you see you soon!" It put a smile on my face.
I have realized that this experience has been amazing and I am so grateful. I cannot wait to work with these people again because they have made the past two months of my life so awesome.
A few of the grads I know are teaching classes next semester and are interested in having me take them...I think I might.
I came home to an empty house again, the girls were coming home later that evening. However, I really enjoyed it.
OH, that morning before I left I set a bug bomb, so I had to discard that when I got home but that really isn't important to the story.
I liked being on my own this weekend. Sunday night I cooked myself a mini meatloaf which I had pre-pared that morning. Mashed potatoes and corn. I put the showtunes channel on while I did some homework. When dinner was ready I put on a tv movie and just relaxed. It was nice.
OH, Saturday during the day I watched Pretty Woman for the first time. Loved it so much.
Overall, good weekend. Good people, good shows, good meatloaf.
Bon Appetit.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Winter Evening and Warmth
This of course is referring to a new, Limited Edition, fragrance by Febreze.
They also have one that smells like a Christmas Tree (will get that on in about a month) and two other ones that also smelled amazing. This one, however, is special. This one has a scent so divine, you just want to smell it all the time.
It brings up the question, "Where can I get a Winter Evening with Warmth like that?"
Let me explain...
What do you think a Winter Evening would smell like?
Before coming across this scent, if asked the question, I would probably respond, "A mixture of hot chocolate, a warm fire, frosty air, a home-cooked meal by mom, maybe some warm apple pie...."... the list would go on forever. Nothing makes me happier than a true Winter Evening.
BUT, I am getting older and my Winter Evenings will start to change over the next several years. Meaning, someday I will stop spending Winter Evenings at home with mom and dad. Someday I will have a special someone to share my Winter Evenings with. This part of the discussion is my favorite. Why? Because I get to fantasize about my dream guy...my Winter Evening.
... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Ok, now that I have fantasized about my Winter Evening, back to my discussion.
This scent, is just that. Ok, so it isn't my prince charming in a bottle...but it might as well be his scent. This fragrance smells like a very sexy man's cologne. It is indescribable. I really want to meet a guy who uses it as his daily wear. I don't care if it is Febreze, it is the best smell I have ever smelled, guy wise. It is pure heaven.
This discovery has sparked some rather interesting mind conversations.
1) I was in lecture and a guy came in late and grabbed the seat next to me. He didn't smell like B.O., but he didn't smell nice. He just smelled dirty. He smelled like heat. So, I had a very brief, 5 minutes give or take, mind conversation with myself wishing that I had the Febreze with me so I could douse him in it. Then I began to fantasize with the idea that he pulled it out of his bad and saw me looking at him. This embarrassed him because it is only Febreze but I confessed that I loved that scent and it was happily ever after for us. Well, none of this happened. He continued to stink and he wasn't even that cute, at all. He had a look about him that he was this party-er who couldn't be bothered with the class and is only coming because he's got nothing better to do. But, I won't judge a book by his cover....I am just making a random "what if".
2) Tonight marks the second night that the roommies and I, don't ever tell them I told you this, have doused our beds (pillows, sheets, blankets, etc.) with this stuff. When we curl up in bed at night it is very nice. We hope it will bring us sweet dreams. So far, last night I didn't have any dream...but I didn't use a lot. I used a little more tonight, so we'll see how that goes.
Someday I will have my Winter Evening. But, until then I am going to snack on cereal and treat myself to a movie before going to bed. Oh, and I can't forget the Finding Nemo fruit snacks...
Bon Appetit!
They also have one that smells like a Christmas Tree (will get that on in about a month) and two other ones that also smelled amazing. This one, however, is special. This one has a scent so divine, you just want to smell it all the time.
It brings up the question, "Where can I get a Winter Evening with Warmth like that?"
Let me explain...
What do you think a Winter Evening would smell like?
Before coming across this scent, if asked the question, I would probably respond, "A mixture of hot chocolate, a warm fire, frosty air, a home-cooked meal by mom, maybe some warm apple pie...."... the list would go on forever. Nothing makes me happier than a true Winter Evening.
BUT, I am getting older and my Winter Evenings will start to change over the next several years. Meaning, someday I will stop spending Winter Evenings at home with mom and dad. Someday I will have a special someone to share my Winter Evenings with. This part of the discussion is my favorite. Why? Because I get to fantasize about my dream guy...my Winter Evening.
... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Ok, now that I have fantasized about my Winter Evening, back to my discussion.
This scent, is just that. Ok, so it isn't my prince charming in a bottle...but it might as well be his scent. This fragrance smells like a very sexy man's cologne. It is indescribable. I really want to meet a guy who uses it as his daily wear. I don't care if it is Febreze, it is the best smell I have ever smelled, guy wise. It is pure heaven.
This discovery has sparked some rather interesting mind conversations.
1) I was in lecture and a guy came in late and grabbed the seat next to me. He didn't smell like B.O., but he didn't smell nice. He just smelled dirty. He smelled like heat. So, I had a very brief, 5 minutes give or take, mind conversation with myself wishing that I had the Febreze with me so I could douse him in it. Then I began to fantasize with the idea that he pulled it out of his bad and saw me looking at him. This embarrassed him because it is only Febreze but I confessed that I loved that scent and it was happily ever after for us. Well, none of this happened. He continued to stink and he wasn't even that cute, at all. He had a look about him that he was this party-er who couldn't be bothered with the class and is only coming because he's got nothing better to do. But, I won't judge a book by his cover....I am just making a random "what if".
2) Tonight marks the second night that the roommies and I, don't ever tell them I told you this, have doused our beds (pillows, sheets, blankets, etc.) with this stuff. When we curl up in bed at night it is very nice. We hope it will bring us sweet dreams. So far, last night I didn't have any dream...but I didn't use a lot. I used a little more tonight, so we'll see how that goes.
Someday I will have my Winter Evening. But, until then I am going to snack on cereal and treat myself to a movie before going to bed. Oh, and I can't forget the Finding Nemo fruit snacks...
Bon Appetit!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Giddy
We kicked off the second weekend of the show I am, Tragedy:A Tragedy, tonight.
All seemed to go very well. After the show we were asked to come up to the house. turns out, and everyone but me knew this, we were being adjudicated.
In high school, when shows were adjudicated, we didn't get to hear from the adjudicators right after the show. Tonight we did.
Before I go any further I just have to say this: My post talking about the "Dark Side"...I take most of it back.
Not because we got bad feedback (we didn't, we got great feedback), but because I was hit with a revelation tonight that has left me rather giddy.
What the adjudicators had to say really doesn't matter....it's what happened afterward.
So, there's this part of the play when I come on, I give Frank (played by the awesome Adam) my earpiece a note and exit the theatre. Tonight I forgot the note. It's not a big deal. It's not scripted, it was just a little something I added. So, I wait for him in the lobby and when he came out I pulled him aside. I basically apologized for forgetting his note. I knew it wasn't a big deal but, out of courtesy, I wanted to apologize. We ended up talking for about twenty-five minutes.
Quick background. Adam is a grad-student. He is rather talented. Rather good looking (and gay...yay theatre). Amazingly sweet. He was the first one to really make me feel "at home" with this cast (they all really embraced me and the other interns). And is just a really great guy all-around.
We talked about the note, and how it brought a different (but good) feel to that scene for him. He likes the notes better, but it really worked out nicely tonight. Then we went on about how many things were off tonight, but not in a bad way. He pointed out how when I brought him his sugar he turned to thank me and I was already headed backstage. I explained that I was always told I was going to be cued backstage because I don't know when he asks for the sugar and I haven't been cued, so I normally try to tell by his shadow that I can see off stage. Usually I enter at the end of John's speech, right before Michael starts talking. Tonight I realized John was almost done and I didn't want to walk all over the beginning of Michael's speech because that is the most important part, normally. So I quickly came on, heard him say thank you, but quickly got off. Also, there is a sound cue that the earpieces are receiving nasty feedback. I am normally not on stage but was tonight and reacted to it. When I told him my mini-story of why it was flustered. He said, "I saw that! Oh my gosh, Emily you are so talented. To pick up on something on the spot like that. I love you."
Well, here is where my revelation hit me. I wasn't hung up on the compliment but was rather hung up on the comment in general. I realized that I would never have gotten that comment from an adjudicator because it would have looked blocked since everyone else as reacting. But because I have worked through this whole process with Adam he picks up on the more subtle true moments of genius (not that I'm a genius, but I am referring to all the actors in my cast...in any cast there are moments of genius...you get what I mean). That's when I realized the following.
So today isn't "my day"...but someday it will be. Until then this is just experience. Both from a learning standpoint and just an experience in general standpoint. I am lucky to be given these opportunities to work with really amazing people and get this experience that will help me later in my "career". Also, (I have picked this revelation up in one of my more recent classes) I am more focused on learning and applying technique rather than just performing in class right now. Some day I will (I will never stop learning new things but) be able to perform my heart out using these techniques (I hope). No matter where I end up in this industry, I am living the most important part of it. Some people just try to be in shows and be the best. Some people just want to fast forward through school and go into the big leagues. I am realizing that this is where it all begins. This is where I will become that person. By realizing this, I am able to take more out of it. I am able to relish these moments and it will take me farther because I am taking my time and am taking things one step at a time. Realizing all this at once is rejuvenating to me. It put me in such a good mood. I am excited to see where I will end up in life, but knowing that the secret to getting far in life lies in being involved in my education is like knowing the secret to immortality. I feel utterly in control, but not in control at the same time. I feel in control because I now know that my work know will be reflected in my future work but not in control because I know God has a plan for my life and He is in control.
I don't know if any of this is coming off the way I am intending. But I hope you get the gist.
Anyway, I talked to Adam about many other things too.
then I came home and texted my brother. He is going through some tough times and I really don't know how to be there for him without him feeling like I am hovering or lecturing him...A text conversation was the way to do it. I found out so much so quickly and we were able to communicate better because I didn't need to know all the details and he didn't have to hear the tones of my comments...we just went with it and we left the conversation (both of us) in a really good place.
I am truly blessed and am on top of the world now. Even though my roommates are in a stupid session of conflict. Nothing can rain on my parade right now. I feel great.
The village people inside my head and I are finally starting to get one another. They still may get a little unruly sometimes, but I'm sure I do to....we all do. That's life. That's another thing I have realized. Life is life. Take what you can get and work with it. My roommate makes comments about how I don't get really angry, I don't let my frustration get to me and I rarely get angry/frustrated. It may bother her that I don't need to scream or holler....it's really just because I have experienced enough (that's weird to say even though I am not even 20) to the point where I have learned to live life the way I do. I like it, it's really so much easier than worrying, or getting angry or whatever else.
Again, I am so blessed and cannot wait to start another beautiful day (the weather is perfect right now) and have another great night with my acting family!
Bon Appetit!!!!!!!
All seemed to go very well. After the show we were asked to come up to the house. turns out, and everyone but me knew this, we were being adjudicated.
In high school, when shows were adjudicated, we didn't get to hear from the adjudicators right after the show. Tonight we did.
Before I go any further I just have to say this: My post talking about the "Dark Side"...I take most of it back.
Not because we got bad feedback (we didn't, we got great feedback), but because I was hit with a revelation tonight that has left me rather giddy.
What the adjudicators had to say really doesn't matter....it's what happened afterward.
So, there's this part of the play when I come on, I give Frank (played by the awesome Adam) my earpiece a note and exit the theatre. Tonight I forgot the note. It's not a big deal. It's not scripted, it was just a little something I added. So, I wait for him in the lobby and when he came out I pulled him aside. I basically apologized for forgetting his note. I knew it wasn't a big deal but, out of courtesy, I wanted to apologize. We ended up talking for about twenty-five minutes.
Quick background. Adam is a grad-student. He is rather talented. Rather good looking (and gay...yay theatre). Amazingly sweet. He was the first one to really make me feel "at home" with this cast (they all really embraced me and the other interns). And is just a really great guy all-around.
We talked about the note, and how it brought a different (but good) feel to that scene for him. He likes the notes better, but it really worked out nicely tonight. Then we went on about how many things were off tonight, but not in a bad way. He pointed out how when I brought him his sugar he turned to thank me and I was already headed backstage. I explained that I was always told I was going to be cued backstage because I don't know when he asks for the sugar and I haven't been cued, so I normally try to tell by his shadow that I can see off stage. Usually I enter at the end of John's speech, right before Michael starts talking. Tonight I realized John was almost done and I didn't want to walk all over the beginning of Michael's speech because that is the most important part, normally. So I quickly came on, heard him say thank you, but quickly got off. Also, there is a sound cue that the earpieces are receiving nasty feedback. I am normally not on stage but was tonight and reacted to it. When I told him my mini-story of why it was flustered. He said, "I saw that! Oh my gosh, Emily you are so talented. To pick up on something on the spot like that. I love you."
Well, here is where my revelation hit me. I wasn't hung up on the compliment but was rather hung up on the comment in general. I realized that I would never have gotten that comment from an adjudicator because it would have looked blocked since everyone else as reacting. But because I have worked through this whole process with Adam he picks up on the more subtle true moments of genius (not that I'm a genius, but I am referring to all the actors in my cast...in any cast there are moments of genius...you get what I mean). That's when I realized the following.
So today isn't "my day"...but someday it will be. Until then this is just experience. Both from a learning standpoint and just an experience in general standpoint. I am lucky to be given these opportunities to work with really amazing people and get this experience that will help me later in my "career". Also, (I have picked this revelation up in one of my more recent classes) I am more focused on learning and applying technique rather than just performing in class right now. Some day I will (I will never stop learning new things but) be able to perform my heart out using these techniques (I hope). No matter where I end up in this industry, I am living the most important part of it. Some people just try to be in shows and be the best. Some people just want to fast forward through school and go into the big leagues. I am realizing that this is where it all begins. This is where I will become that person. By realizing this, I am able to take more out of it. I am able to relish these moments and it will take me farther because I am taking my time and am taking things one step at a time. Realizing all this at once is rejuvenating to me. It put me in such a good mood. I am excited to see where I will end up in life, but knowing that the secret to getting far in life lies in being involved in my education is like knowing the secret to immortality. I feel utterly in control, but not in control at the same time. I feel in control because I now know that my work know will be reflected in my future work but not in control because I know God has a plan for my life and He is in control.
I don't know if any of this is coming off the way I am intending. But I hope you get the gist.
Anyway, I talked to Adam about many other things too.
then I came home and texted my brother. He is going through some tough times and I really don't know how to be there for him without him feeling like I am hovering or lecturing him...A text conversation was the way to do it. I found out so much so quickly and we were able to communicate better because I didn't need to know all the details and he didn't have to hear the tones of my comments...we just went with it and we left the conversation (both of us) in a really good place.
I am truly blessed and am on top of the world now. Even though my roommates are in a stupid session of conflict. Nothing can rain on my parade right now. I feel great.
The village people inside my head and I are finally starting to get one another. They still may get a little unruly sometimes, but I'm sure I do to....we all do. That's life. That's another thing I have realized. Life is life. Take what you can get and work with it. My roommate makes comments about how I don't get really angry, I don't let my frustration get to me and I rarely get angry/frustrated. It may bother her that I don't need to scream or holler....it's really just because I have experienced enough (that's weird to say even though I am not even 20) to the point where I have learned to live life the way I do. I like it, it's really so much easier than worrying, or getting angry or whatever else.
Again, I am so blessed and cannot wait to start another beautiful day (the weather is perfect right now) and have another great night with my acting family!
Bon Appetit!!!!!!!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
It's Complicated
And no I am not referring to the Awesome comedy that is set to release in December starring Meryl Streep, Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin....
...Honestly they stole the title from me...I was leaning toward that title for a while...for either my book or a chapter in my book. I guess I will just have to say this shpiel(the Yiddish form of the word used the H, whereas the real word doesn't) if I use it, huh?
Anyway, now that I went on a mini-mind adventure, let's get back to business.
Yesterday one of my roommates was in a very bad mood and was taking it out on my other roommate...it was just really uncomfortable and it seemed to be for a really stupid reason.
While that roommate was at work today I had the opportunity to talk with my other roommate and she told me what was going on. I see where roommate A (the mad one) was coming from BUT I also see some huge flaws in her reasoning. Roommate B and I had a really long talk about so many different things and it was quite nice. We really see each other eye to eye and have a lot in common. And sadly, that includes views and beliefs different than those of our other roommate. I love roommate A to death and she is one of my closest friends but sometimes its just a bit much.
So, maybe I didn't go into enough detail like I was planning on doing...but I don't want to open a huge can of worms. Things have pretty much settled down for now and my relationship is growing with my other roommate. If you really want to know all the nittty-gritties feel free to contact me on your own time and I will gladly fill you in.
Tomorrow is a big day for my brother. I can't go into any detail, but there is a big decision being made tomorrow and I guess I am just asking for thoughts and prayers that no matter the outcome we will be able to handle anything and get through anything and that he has the strength to overcome any obstacles.
What else is going on in the land of EM?
I decided instead of trying to finish writing the entire play by Thursday to be turned in...I am going to just write about thirty pages and then continue and use the full piece as my final.... so that is a little less stressful because I know where I want to go but I don't know how to get there just yet...and I get to tighten up what I have so far...
What else, what else? I know there has to be something else going on in my life...
Maybe I'll just ask a random question....
If you were to be stuck on an Island for an unknown amount of time what would you bring in each of these categories?
-Animal/Pet-
-Movie-
-Food Item (to eat the entire time)-
-Leisure Activity-
-Random Object of your choice-
GO
Bon Appetit
...Honestly they stole the title from me...I was leaning toward that title for a while...for either my book or a chapter in my book. I guess I will just have to say this shpiel(the Yiddish form of the word used the H, whereas the real word doesn't) if I use it, huh?
Anyway, now that I went on a mini-mind adventure, let's get back to business.
Yesterday one of my roommates was in a very bad mood and was taking it out on my other roommate...it was just really uncomfortable and it seemed to be for a really stupid reason.
While that roommate was at work today I had the opportunity to talk with my other roommate and she told me what was going on. I see where roommate A (the mad one) was coming from BUT I also see some huge flaws in her reasoning. Roommate B and I had a really long talk about so many different things and it was quite nice. We really see each other eye to eye and have a lot in common. And sadly, that includes views and beliefs different than those of our other roommate. I love roommate A to death and she is one of my closest friends but sometimes its just a bit much.
So, maybe I didn't go into enough detail like I was planning on doing...but I don't want to open a huge can of worms. Things have pretty much settled down for now and my relationship is growing with my other roommate. If you really want to know all the nittty-gritties feel free to contact me on your own time and I will gladly fill you in.
Tomorrow is a big day for my brother. I can't go into any detail, but there is a big decision being made tomorrow and I guess I am just asking for thoughts and prayers that no matter the outcome we will be able to handle anything and get through anything and that he has the strength to overcome any obstacles.
What else is going on in the land of EM?
I decided instead of trying to finish writing the entire play by Thursday to be turned in...I am going to just write about thirty pages and then continue and use the full piece as my final.... so that is a little less stressful because I know where I want to go but I don't know how to get there just yet...and I get to tighten up what I have so far...
What else, what else? I know there has to be something else going on in my life...
Maybe I'll just ask a random question....
If you were to be stuck on an Island for an unknown amount of time what would you bring in each of these categories?
-Animal/Pet-
-Movie-
-Food Item (to eat the entire time)-
-Leisure Activity-
-Random Object of your choice-
GO
Bon Appetit
Friday, October 2, 2009
Am I Human? or Am I going over to the dark side?
Disclaimer: I feel really strongly that I am just human. So, if any of this sounds like the "Dark Side" it is just your imagination. Ok? Good. Shall we continue with our normal programming? Good. Go ahead, I'm not stopping you...oh wait, I am.... sorry...here we go, for real this time...
Before we can psychoanalyze my psycho-ness.... I must take you back two days.
At Wednesday's Dress rehearsal part of my role was cut from the show. I was a good sport about the whole thing. It really didn't bother me at all, now that I think about it....
However, tonight we had our final Dress Rehearsal, which was a "preview" show and so we technically had an audience. The run went well (sort of...but I will get to that). I am really confident that our run will be a good one and we will get really good feedback from it. BUT (you had to see that coming) I am a little put off.
(Here is where I might sound a wee bit evil)
When I was cast, I understood that my role was as minor as minor can get. I had no lines, I was basically a living prop. However, the director made it sound like I was going to be pretty heftily involved. As we began rehearsals I started to see what she meant...and she didn't convey that initially.
I basically walk onstage a few times, hand the actor a piece of paper or a sugar packet, and then walk off.
Don't get me wrong I am thrilled to be a part of an ASU mainstage, that's kind of a big deal....however, I really feel like I could have done something more significant. That really hit me tonight.
I have come to the conclusion that ASU favors actors so now that I am in one show I can hopefully find it easier to get into others (I hope)...really a lot of the grad students get cast, and a lot of them aren't that good. Scratch that: I haven't seen most of them in their element (they auditioned and got in didn't they, there has to be something worthwhile about their talents, right? ASU's theatre school is one of the best in the country- so I'm told). I'm not saying I am the best thing that could ever happen to them, but I know I could do this. But I keep telling myself this is my in, and I am happy with that. I know I am. So why am I so put off by this show all of the sudden?
Could it be that I put a lot of work into it and feel it was for nothing?
Could it be because I feel I have more to give than pieces of paper?
Could it be that I am just in the stage of rehearsals where you hate the show?
Could it be that one of the grad-students is a total Primma-Donna?
Maybe it is all of the above...who knows really.
But I brought up a good point that I would like to discuss further. His name, well let's just keep him anonymous.
Here's a little bit of what I have seen:
First, I hear from the other actors that he told our director-while she was giving notes-"For the sake of argument, I think your wrong and I think what I am doing is better and I think I should stick with that." He also complained that where he stands on stage is "not viewable by the whole audience".... We have camera work within the show and when our director told him the part of the audience that really cant see him will be able to see him on camera he replied, "I don't want my performance to be based off of what is seen on camera" (um, excuse me for a moment, what your doing on camera is exactly what you are doing on stage....so, what am I missing?)....Today however, I feel was the worst.
In one part of the show he gets a bloody nose. SPOILER ALERT There is a cup on the back of his bench where the blood is and he dips his finger and gives himself a "bloody-nose"...well one kid on the costume crew, in charge of putting the blood there, didn't today. I suggested that the girl who goes on and talks with him (she plays the witness and he interviews her) should bring a small cup of it and there you go. They liked the idea and the girl did it beautifully.
After the show he came downstairs (that's where our dressing/costume rooms are) and he didn't have quite as much blood as he normally does, he was avoiding communication with everyone, and was just in a bad mood. During notes the director questioned why the witness was leaning up against our main man and she told her it was because she was placing his blood. The director, hadn't even noticed. He, however, kindly tells us that he could barely get his fingers into this cup and that's why he didn't have a lot of blood and that someone needs to do something so that this never happens again.
Um, it was final dress, a tech rehearsal...things are supposed to go wrong. We make mistakes, learn from them and then know not to screw up during show. Also, we got him blood on time, so why was he is such a pissy mood? Because he is a total primma-donna.
I think he is a good actor though, that's what pains me. He can be a good actor but he has all the bad actor qualities.... It is rather unfortunate. He's really nice though and behind the scenes we get along and I hope I work with him again (a-that means I will get work, b-if I want to have this career I have to work with people who are worse than him, c-no, that's all).
That's my rant. I hope I didn't sound like a stuck-up, "I'm too good for this" actor. I promise I am not, or at least I hope I'm not really like this....
For show info go to KANYnews4.com (there are videos of me on there :D)
We run Oct 2-18. Fri-Sat at 7:30; Sun at 2
(I recommend coming early because my main stage time is during pre-show...lol)
My ear hurts all of the sudden....random? Yes.
Also, pray for me. I am in the process of applying for a job. Applied yesterday at a place I would love to work. Einsteins Bagels. Nothing too glamorous. But the hours would let me still be in shows, they are amazing, and the people seemed really nice. Oh and it's an income....
And if you could: pray for my brother. Thanks.
You stay classy World.
Bon Appetit
Before we can psychoanalyze my psycho-ness.... I must take you back two days.
At Wednesday's Dress rehearsal part of my role was cut from the show. I was a good sport about the whole thing. It really didn't bother me at all, now that I think about it....
However, tonight we had our final Dress Rehearsal, which was a "preview" show and so we technically had an audience. The run went well (sort of...but I will get to that). I am really confident that our run will be a good one and we will get really good feedback from it. BUT (you had to see that coming) I am a little put off.
(Here is where I might sound a wee bit evil)
When I was cast, I understood that my role was as minor as minor can get. I had no lines, I was basically a living prop. However, the director made it sound like I was going to be pretty heftily involved. As we began rehearsals I started to see what she meant...and she didn't convey that initially.
I basically walk onstage a few times, hand the actor a piece of paper or a sugar packet, and then walk off.
Don't get me wrong I am thrilled to be a part of an ASU mainstage, that's kind of a big deal....however, I really feel like I could have done something more significant. That really hit me tonight.
I have come to the conclusion that ASU favors actors so now that I am in one show I can hopefully find it easier to get into others (I hope)...really a lot of the grad students get cast, and a lot of them aren't that good. Scratch that: I haven't seen most of them in their element (they auditioned and got in didn't they, there has to be something worthwhile about their talents, right? ASU's theatre school is one of the best in the country- so I'm told). I'm not saying I am the best thing that could ever happen to them, but I know I could do this. But I keep telling myself this is my in, and I am happy with that. I know I am. So why am I so put off by this show all of the sudden?
Could it be that I put a lot of work into it and feel it was for nothing?
Could it be because I feel I have more to give than pieces of paper?
Could it be that I am just in the stage of rehearsals where you hate the show?
Could it be that one of the grad-students is a total Primma-Donna?
Maybe it is all of the above...who knows really.
But I brought up a good point that I would like to discuss further. His name, well let's just keep him anonymous.
Here's a little bit of what I have seen:
First, I hear from the other actors that he told our director-while she was giving notes-"For the sake of argument, I think your wrong and I think what I am doing is better and I think I should stick with that." He also complained that where he stands on stage is "not viewable by the whole audience".... We have camera work within the show and when our director told him the part of the audience that really cant see him will be able to see him on camera he replied, "I don't want my performance to be based off of what is seen on camera" (um, excuse me for a moment, what your doing on camera is exactly what you are doing on stage....so, what am I missing?)....Today however, I feel was the worst.
In one part of the show he gets a bloody nose. SPOILER ALERT There is a cup on the back of his bench where the blood is and he dips his finger and gives himself a "bloody-nose"...well one kid on the costume crew, in charge of putting the blood there, didn't today. I suggested that the girl who goes on and talks with him (she plays the witness and he interviews her) should bring a small cup of it and there you go. They liked the idea and the girl did it beautifully.
After the show he came downstairs (that's where our dressing/costume rooms are) and he didn't have quite as much blood as he normally does, he was avoiding communication with everyone, and was just in a bad mood. During notes the director questioned why the witness was leaning up against our main man and she told her it was because she was placing his blood. The director, hadn't even noticed. He, however, kindly tells us that he could barely get his fingers into this cup and that's why he didn't have a lot of blood and that someone needs to do something so that this never happens again.
Um, it was final dress, a tech rehearsal...things are supposed to go wrong. We make mistakes, learn from them and then know not to screw up during show. Also, we got him blood on time, so why was he is such a pissy mood? Because he is a total primma-donna.
I think he is a good actor though, that's what pains me. He can be a good actor but he has all the bad actor qualities.... It is rather unfortunate. He's really nice though and behind the scenes we get along and I hope I work with him again (a-that means I will get work, b-if I want to have this career I have to work with people who are worse than him, c-no, that's all).
That's my rant. I hope I didn't sound like a stuck-up, "I'm too good for this" actor. I promise I am not, or at least I hope I'm not really like this....
For show info go to KANYnews4.com (there are videos of me on there :D)
We run Oct 2-18. Fri-Sat at 7:30; Sun at 2
(I recommend coming early because my main stage time is during pre-show...lol)
My ear hurts all of the sudden....random? Yes.
Also, pray for me. I am in the process of applying for a job. Applied yesterday at a place I would love to work. Einsteins Bagels. Nothing too glamorous. But the hours would let me still be in shows, they are amazing, and the people seemed really nice. Oh and it's an income....
And if you could: pray for my brother. Thanks.
You stay classy World.
Bon Appetit
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